Thursday, July 12, 2012

Vacation - July 10th




It’s the second day of my second week of vacation.  It amazes me how I can completely disconnect from work when I’m on vacation; I guess it’s a survival mechanism I learned during my almost 35 years doing the same kind of work.    

I’m still early enough in my vacation that I haven’t started to get anxious about it almost being over.  I’ve got practically a whole month left.  The endless days of summer –  when you might kayak a few hours in the morning, read a book, have a campfire at the end of the day, or just sit and watch the fireflies and listen to the bullfrogs and loons.   There are hundreds, maybe thousands, of books written about achieving “presence” – how to; why to; when to.  Yet I wonder if there’s a defect in my character that allows me to sit there “present” for hours on end, observing all that’s happening around me.  Like the way the nuthatch takes just one seed from the feeder, flies to a nearby tree and finds a crevice to stick the seed into so he can crack it open with his beak to eat it.  I always wonder if that’s really a net gain, calorie wise.  Or the way the water is so calm you’re more likely to see a reflection of an eagle or osprey in the water before you see him flying overhead.  I like the way the ends of the maple leaves curl back in a breeze and the centers catch the sun so that they look more silver than green.    

The duckweed has started to move in and the water lilies, wild rice, and reeds have started to poke their heads above the surface of the water.  The cove is taking on the midsummer characteristics of a marsh and leaving behind the rushing and unpredictable stream of spring. 

Today is a perfect 82ish with a warm breeze that every once in a while increases in intensity and almost feels like a squall.  But then it eases back, and the sun returns as if to say, “Just wanted to make sure you were paying attention.”   I smile and say thanks. 

This morning I finished my second Elizabeth Berg book, Open House.  Predictable but a pleasant read.  Her other book was recommended to me by my son who works at the local library.  I don’t go to the library very often but that’s where our voting station is so I decided to pick up a book while I was there to vote recently.  We’re All Welcome Here I think was the name of the first one.  Much less predictable and rather remarkable actually, about a woman who became a quadriplegic from polio, raising her daughter in the South of the 60s.   A rather implausible ending but still a good read.

Let’s see, in addition to those two books, since vacation started I’ve read The Crossing Places by Elly Griffiths, (loved it – about a middle aged female archaeologist turned detective.  I found it by Googling for a book that takes place on a marsh.  I love reading books that take place in the location where I’m reading.  This took place on a salt water marsh, rather than something like my own little marshy stream cove, but it worked out well because I started it here and finished it at the coast.)  I then read Hull Creek by Jim Nichols, a novel set on the coast of Maine which my friend who recommended it told me was written by a Maine native.   Just before vacation started I finished a book by Ann Rice that was recommended in an NPR article entitled, “What to Read Instead of 50 Shades of Gray.”  Apparently Rice wrote this series of 3 books under a pseudonym and only fessed up many years later when they became quite popular.  They’re pretty dark.  I just read the first one and will probably stop there though I do want to know how things end for the protagonist. 

I’ve been streaming a Lucinda Williams station on Pandora through my smartphone plugged into an iPod player with speakers.  They’re playing some wonderful music.  I just noticed it’s almost one o’clock and I haven’t even had breakfast – just a couple cups of coffee.  Maybe I’ll have some of the pasta casserole I made last night in the toaster oven – a spicy Arabiata sauce to which I added black olives, baby mushrooms, feta cheese, whole wheat organic spaghetti and a generous amount of Merlot wine.  Came out quite delicious if I do say so myself.  I finished off almost all of the remainder of the Merlot with dinner. 

The marsh is alive with dragon and damsel flies and the fish jump and snatch one for lunch every so often.  I saw an eagle soaring overhead yesterday as well as several osprey (one of the books I just read called them fish hawks).  Think I’ll head out for a paddle.  



Just enjoyed a 2 or 3 hour paddle – I never think to check the time when I leave.  Paddled down to the Route 126 bridge and then came back and went upstream to where the stream narrows by the log cottage.  I was happy to see some loons cause I haven’t heard any since I got here yesterday.  But they’re still around and looking happy.  Looks like my neighbors left while I was gone so it’ll be a quiet night.  Maybe I’ll beat on my djembe for a while – I’m sure the critters won’t object.    

Friday, July 6, 2012

Popham 2012

Full moon over Popham Beach, Phippsburg, Maine.  

We spent last week at Ocean View Campground next to Popham Beach State Park as we have the last few years.  Lots of sitting on the beach and reading, evenings of music around the campsites, good food, good company, oh, and fireworks, lots of fireworks (even though we had to wait till the 5th to shoot them off due to inclement weather).  







Brandon running after lighting one of his contributions to the fireworks display.
Tom - throwing kids into the water - they stand in line.  






We took a walk along the beach on today.  I love walking on the shoreline – the way my beach skirt flutters in the breeze and take off my hat to allow my hair to do the same.  The sand, as always, feels lovely on my toes.  I realize this is the first long walk I’ve taken this week and feel sad that it’s our last day here.  I also actually jumped into the water today; first time I’ve done that since we started staying here.  It didn’t even feel that cold.  




Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Flood has receded

You can see the flood has receded substantially


The island is gone, though a new, smaller one moved in to the side.
Lots of cute little turtles in the cove this year.  This photo taken from the deck.
I love having meals on the deck while watching activities on the stream.










Wednesday, June 6, 2012

Flood of June 2012



Pretty hostas 

rather wet hostas


Underwater flowers



With the island


Without the island




Saturday, June 2, 2012




I've been enjoying a lazy rainy day of coffee in bed, last Sunday's newspaper puzzles, and a cozy fire. Temps are probably hovering about 60.  Critters are out in force, including the sounds of eagles and osprey overhead.  If you happen to be looking at the right time or if you're quick enough when you hear a splash, you'll see one of them carry off a nice fish.




I love my little one room camp - my fortress of indulgence.  Internet access through my new Android phone to communicate with the world if I wish, a little Rumi, and my latest book on my Kindle.  I'm glad I got in a long paddle on the stream yesterday cause I won't be going out today even though there was a guy, raincoat and all, fishing right out front earlier.  I was sitting in bed Thursday night watching a fisherman out on the stream casting towards the camp as I counted 5 big fish jump behind him.  I think I heard one snicker.


A loon from my Friday paddle.

I like the way you can barely see camp from the stream.




Brunch 
lovely sunset last weekend

last weekend's campfire




When I got back from my paddle yesterday I started watering my flowers and noticed one of the "rocks" in the garden started moving.


The front of his shell is covered with duckweed from the stream.  He was moving very slowly and later appeared to be dead, sitting there on shore with feet and legs out, surrounded by flies.  Rick touched him with a stick and his eyes flickered open but he didn't move.  Maybe he was just waiting for the flies to get close enough so he could eat them but he just looked so pathetic we decided to wash the duckweed off him with a hose to see if it revived him.  Well it did wake him up or whatever and he slowly turned around and made his way into the stream.  You could see the path he made underwater by the way the reeds moved as he swam.  We were very relieved that he appeared well and didn't die right there in the garden.



Well I'm glad I got a chance to post some of my recent photos.  Time now to unplug and enjoy my fortress of solitude.

I hear the Kindle faintly calling but right now I'm just savoring the sound of rain falling on the tin roof.  It always makes me think of Nora Jones' song, "Come Away With Me":

"And I want to wake up with the rain
Falling on a tin roof
While I'm safe there in your arms
So all I ask is for you
To come away with me in the night"


Monday, May 28, 2012

Shades of Gray





I spent the night solo at camp, staying up very late and finishing my book:  50 Shades of Gray.  I woke up to a very overcast and gray day on Friday and realized I'd been writing about 50 Shades of Gray long before it was all the rage.  Here's a link to one I wrote a year ago:  http://fiorghra.blogspot.com/2011/08/april-camp.html

Here's one I wrote Friday morning:


Shades of Gray


Nothing does bleak better than a marsh in spring
The smoky gray water that sparkles on another day is unrevealing and foreboding
Unapologetically reflecting the dreary sky of an emerging day
Great stark limbs of dead trees protrude from the hoary surface
Obscured further by a fog 
                  creating a translucent and vague outcome 
The lush reeds of August remain below the surface 
                  just reeking of anticipation
On this morning, even the wildlife that come to feed in the marsh
Maintain the muted motif of dull whites, blacks, and of course, grays
And when you pull it all together it goes from dreary and dull to 
Startling, exciting, brimming with uncertainty and promise 
And you never knew 50 shades of gray could be so beautiful.

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Here

Sunday, May 27th - spent last three nights here at camp - guess it's going to be a fourth.  It's hard to leave.  I enjoy the absence of tv and other distractions of home; I should be glazing some pots that have been ready and waiting for days; or doing laundry; or paying bills; or vacuuming, sweeping, etc.  But instead I'm enjoying my fourth day at camp, deciding whether to kayak or read my new book, or bang on some drums, or just sit and watch the critters.  I've been listening to the birds, frogs, and loons; later the peepers will be out in force.  

Earlier I took a solo kayak paddle up to where the stream narrows, taking a few side trips on the way.  Only saw one other boat on the stream the whole trip.  Came back and hung up the prayer flags* I bought in Portland a few weeks ago.  


Also cleaned up my Altar to the Universe and lit some incense.  The critters always tear up the altar because the bird seed from above falls into the rocks and they dig for it.  The rocks are mostly ones I've picked up here and there:  Campobello Island last summer, Reid State Park, Popham, even Virgin Gorda in the British Virgin Islands and a couple places in Thailand.  Just don't ask me which are which.  


The two hollow log planters that you can see in this photo had impatiens in them which apparently the critters thought were planted for their culinary delight. They also nibbled on one of my hostas.  Thankfully the other two planters and the other perennials were left alone - so far.







I came out Thursday after my dentist appointment and chilled for a few hours and then went back into Hallowell and had dinner at Hattie's with Jim Lund.  Returned to camp fairly early and slept great waking up to a very gray day on Friday.  Spent most of the day in bed overlooking the stream, reading and writing.  I'll post my 50 Shades of Gray poem later - guess I should call it something else so I don't  get in trouble for plagiarism.  (I just finished the first 50 Shades book Friday night and then downloaded another book to my Kindle - not 50 Shades 2 - but titled The Healing: A Novel by Jonathan Odell.)

Rick picked me up from camp and we went to Margaritta's for dinner and then to Easy Street for dancing, and woke up on Saturday to what was supposed to be a hot sunny day but turned out to be fairly cloudy.  We ran some errands in town (ordered a headboard for the bed here) and Ann and Steve came out for a barbecue and Bloody Marys.  Fortunately the sun finally burned through the clouds and with a nice breeze the weather was absolutely perfect.  Rick and I took a little siesta after they left and woke up around 7:00 for a sunset kayak paddle.


We sat around our campfire for a while and then went inside to watch a movie on the computer.  I'm afraid I didn't last long and was in bed before 11:00.  Woke up at one point in the night to watch a raccoon chase the flying squirrels away from the feeder and on closer inspection discovered a skunk at the base of the tree scrounging for seeds.  I decided not to try and scare the raccoon away.  

I love having internet at camp.  This is the first blog post I've done in some time.  Ahhh . . .  uninterrupted time . . . to do whatever I choose.  Or maybe it's just reducing my options or breaking habits.  


*From Wikipedia:  
Traditionally, prayer flags are used to promote peace, compassion, strength, and wisdom. The flags do not carry prayers to gods, a common misconception; rather, the Tibetans believe the prayers and mantras will be blown by the wind to spread the good will and compassion into all pervading space. Therefore, prayer flags are thought to bring benefit to all.
By hanging flags in high places the Lung ta will carry the blessings depicted on the flags to all beings. As wind passes over the surface of the flags which are sensitive to the slightest movement of the wind, the air is purified and sanctified by the Mantras.
The prayers of a flag become a permanent part of the universe as the images fade from exposure to the elements. Just as life moves on and is replaced by new life, Tibetans renew their hopes for the world by continually mounting new flags alongside the old. This act symbolizes a welcoming of life's changes and an acknowledgment that all beings are part of a greater ongoing cycle.


Monday, February 20, 2012

Mardi Gras 2012

Betty and me at Hattie's for Mardi Gras celebration in Hallowell - 2012.

Friday, February 17, 2012

Valentine's Day 2012


Beautiful roses my sweet man brought me for Valentine's Day.  


Oh my . . . they look much like the ones I sent to my sweet man for Valentine's Day.   


A rather extravagant expense when x 2 but it's sometimes it's good to show the love.  Men like receiving flowers, too, right?

Then put them all together.  So pretty.  


Saturday, February 11, 2012

My Mom Died This Morning - A True Story


My Mom died in October of 2001.  I've shared the story of the day she died with some but I decided to write this poem, or prose, or whatever you might call it.  




My Mom Died This Morning - A True Story

My mom died this morning
A more positive person you’d never met
At times, a difficult life of poverty and domestic violence
But through hard work and perseverance
She created security and great love
If you’d asked her she would have said her life was beautiful
And she was right

Never one to dwell on the negative
Her vivaciousness, wit, understanding, and laughter
Is what everyone always remembers about her

My siblings and I spent the night at the hospital
Knowing it was the end
Wanting to be there for a few last hours with her

She talked about her theory that when you die
You become whatever age you were the most happy during your life
I pictured her running up the big hill at my grandparents’ house
Pigtails flying, followed by any number of her 9 siblings
Headed for the big oak tree that was her steed
Her fort, her Mt. Everest, or her ship,
Whatever her fancy may have been that day

Just as the sun was rising
Her own beautiful star extinguished
All that was left, and it was much,
Was the light and laughter that was her memory

Never being one who could cry at the appropriate time
I sat there feeling empty and alone amongst a crowd of tears
I knew I had to get away and be alone with my loss

I drove home and loaded my kayak onto my car
The unseasonably warm October morning with bright sun and blue skies
Belying the tragedy of the day
A five minute drive to the river
I was relieved that the early hour guaranteed my solitude

Paddling downriver against the incoming tide
You’d think I was being pursued by a monster
Tears finally flowing, leaving a wake of despair

Stopping exhausted next to shore
I looked up and saw a beautiful bald eagle
Perched in a tree not 20 feet above
Staring down at me with a hint of concern

What can be so sad on this day the Lord has given us
He seemed to ask
So I told him of my loss
Of the feeling of becoming an orphan
Of being abandoned
No matter that I was almost 50 years old

We sat there and talked for 20 minutes
Though not a word was spoken
His understanding and compassion
Allowed the tears to flow without feeling pitiful or silly

Finally I thanked him for listening and started off again on my paddle
Peacefully at first but as the sadness returned
The paddling once more became frantic and obsessed
Again, I pulled up next to shore to rest under an overhanging tree
And as I did, much to my surprise, the eagle landed just above me

I couldn’t help but smile through my tears
And welcome him back
I shared with him memories of long talks
Of funny stories, of sad times, and beautiful moments

We laughed and cried
And gave thanks to the universe
For kindness, for adversities, and complex relationships

Again, I thanked him for listening
And slowly and more peacefully
Continued on my way downstream against the tide

I paddled hard and fast and steady for quite some time
But with much less distress than I’d been feeling before
The sun was beating down harshly at this point
The heat of the day at its peak
So the shady cove beckoned me

I pulled over and closed my eyes
Welcoming the relief from the sun
I splashed some water onto my face
And hearing a noise, glanced upwards and burst into laughter
To see my now old friend perched up above
He seemed relieved to hear my mirth
As if it signaled I was back to my old self
The woman who was the daughter my mother produced

Sensing all was well
He lifted off from his branch
And with grace and majesty
He soared down the middle of the river
Until he was just a dot that disappeared
Into the horizon

Suddenly exhaustion overcame me
The sleepless night, the deep emotions and the physical exertion
All came together
And I was grateful to allow the incoming tide
To gently bring me back

Bring me back to my less than perfect but oh so glorious life
To the guilt that every mother feels when she’s put her own needs
Before the needs of her family
To a husband who was also dying
And had only a few months left to live
To three teenage sons who were sad at the loss
Of a grandmother they were very close to

But I’ll be forever grateful for that October day
That I spent with my eagle friend
Thank you Mom for sending him to me
Once again, you knew just what I needed

So if you’re ever with me
And an eagle appears
You’ll know why I look at it with love
And say, “Hi Mom.”

This poem contributed to dVersePoets Open Link Night.


Friday, January 20, 2012

January 2012


I feel a simultaneous aversion and aesthetic appreciation.  It really is very beautiful but with no snow, I’d been wistfully thinking that spring was just around the corner.  It almost didn’t matter that it wasn’t because my psyche felt it there.  Now there’s no pretending.  It really is mid-January.  The lazy paddle down the verdant and wildlife infested Cobb are a distant daydream. The kayaks are covered in snow and won’t be taking me anywhere.   I suppose I must remain present and entertain myself with my favorite winter sport – my pottery wheel.   

Monday, January 16, 2012

Pottery weekend

I think this is a link to a video - not sure if it will work.






The bottom to a casserole dish.  I made a video of throwing this piece.  I'll try to post it.  

The top to the above casserole dish.  

Batter bowl #1.  I made a batter bowl as my Yankee Swap Christmas gift this year and it got swapped (stolen) two times.  Both Jenika and Linda were quite disappointed to lose it so I thought maybe I'd make one for each of them.   

Batter bowl #2

Lisa's son, Josh, was unable to make it to our Christmas Eve celebration/yankee swap this year but asked his mom to be sure to bring home a piece of pottery for him.  I put out a table full of pottery each year and ask people to take whatever they'd like.  They are often not my best pieces - glazes didn't come out quite how I'd wanted them or the shape didn't turn out quite as I'd expected.  Anyway, Josh has a new apartment and I thought I'd make him a couple of cereal/soup bowls.  

This is the bottom part of a covered h'ors doeuvre plate.  I have a couple others of these and I use them quite a bit.    

Not sure how much I like this.  I think it's too tall.  We'll see how it looks after glazing. 

Serving bowl.  Maybe I'll make a cover for it.  I like my food to stay hot.